time capsule: watching the world carefully take itself apart that choice you made the sound of something ripping a terribly small thing rolling around behind me a fraying edge in an inconvenient place

when i was 9 i watched this tv documentary about rare illnesses and the reality of ill-ness and death made me so panicked that i began to vomit. then i brushed my teeth and went to the grocery store with my mom


are you feeling ok?

not really

you look cold

im fine 

take my jacket im warm anyway